For class, we were asked to map out where we see ourselves in the next few years. Here are some of my thoughts and ramblings:
Plan 1: Internships: One, Two, Career?
Use spring 2018 to bolster photojournalism portfolio. Graduate from WKU with a degree in photojournalism Spring 2018. Spend several years working various visual storytelling internships at non-profits and newspapers. Join the Christian Peacemaking Teams and take my camera to document the fight for peace in war-torn Syria. Work for a year at the live-in Christian community and publication at Sojourners’ in D.C. Explore the multitude of photo jobs I am interested in through internships—inner-city education efforts, outdoor recreation, environmental activism, etc. Hopefully, one would stick and I would get a job offer.
LIKABILITY: 4/10 Meh. Constantly being uprooted seems unhealthy mentally, spiritually, and socially. Also, I cannot point my finger on it but this plan does not make me very excited in general. The specific ideas all seem cool but I worry about being away from my community.
CONFIDENCE: 8/10 I could pull this off. I have next to no idea of what it would look like specifically, but I think I could get internships. I am a good networker and have lots of nonprofit experience. Additionally, I have lots of contacts in different cities, so I could see myself settling into living situations without too much difficulty.
COHERENCE: 9/10 This makes sense. Go to college, graduate, then do internships in your major until you find a job you like in the field. This is exactly what my professors would like me to do (except that the internships are with Christian organizations instead of with The New York Times). The only issue is social coherence. I am very connected to a community of family and friends in the Bowling Green area who I want to do life with. However, this plan does not rule out the possibility of exploring internships then moving back to the area after five years.
Plan 2: Bowling Green Intentional Christian Community
Background: Me and two close friends have long been interested in intentional Christian community life—groups of Christians with lives characterized by cohousing, purse-sharing, common prayer, sustainable living, community service for and with those in need, etc. These two friends (my sister and her husband) are starting a house in Bowling Green of this sort this semester. By next year, they will hopefully be somewhat established.
Graduate from WKU in Spring 2018 and move into the newly formed Christian community in town. Continue to photograph weddings, grow clientele, make a real business of my small “Photos by Abby” photo studio side work. Possibly apply for grants and/or pitch photo project ideas to publications to work on more fulfilling community journalistic storytelling.
Although this approach could work, I see myself wanting to get out of Bowling Green eventually to explore the world more.
LIKABILITY: 7/10 Being a wedding photographer is not exactly fulfilling a “calling.” However, I am really good at it. Shooting weddings is fun but exhausting with little making-the-world-better pay off. In terms of the housing situation, it has long been a dream of mine to live in community with other Christians. However, I like the idea of going off into the world for a while and exploring other communities before being in a brand new community with my family and friends. Will I be happy living in my hometown with people I have always known? On one hand, I will have a strong support network for mental, emotional, and spiritual health. On the other hand, I may always wonder what other possibilities are out there beyond Bowling Green.
CONFIDENCE: 7/10 I currently do not have a lot of time to shoot weddings so I do next to no promotion. However, I shoot a wedding every two or three months. I charge around $1000 which is cheap for the market, but enough to pay rent. That would need to go up to several weddings every month if it was a full-time gig. I have no idea how to begin marketing my work, but I know several professionals who I am sure would be willing to mentor me. However, would I have insurance or any other benefits? If I am working as a wedding photographer, I have no boss or company behind me. That also means I am setting my own hours and must be motivated to edit photos and get them back which may or may not be a problem for me. I would have to be very careful about procrastination and time management for photo turn-around.
COHERENCE: 8/10 This makes sense with who I am as a person socially and spiritually. No one who knows me well would be surprised by this plan. There would almost certainly be a place for me in this community house. My only lapse in confidence is related to my ability to market and manage myself as a free-lance wedding photographer.
Plan 3: Girls Just Wanna Be Nuns
Winter 2017-2018: visit and conduct visual ethnography on Russian women’s monastery through a WKU FUSE grant. Spring 2018: complete photojournalism capstone on religious communities in Kentucky and present Honors CE/T comparing religious communities in Russia and Kentucky. Summer 2018: intern at New Skete Monastery in New York. Fall 2018 through Fall 2019: work local job in Bowling Green, focus on prayer life, complete chrismation process in the Orthodox church.
2020: Spend year or two visiting monasteries around the country—possibly doing freelance photo projects on the communities and pitching these to publications. During this process, keep in touch with my priest Father Jason about my spiritual journey.
2022: Become novice at my best fit monastery of the ones I have visited.
LIKABILITY: 9/10 Exploring religious communities, devoting time to the Lord, and forming relationships with experienced spiritual mentors all make me so excited. Since doing a photo project on the local Orthodox church last December and attending there since January, I have totally fallen in love with being in Orthodox worship settings. For example, I help clean the building on Monday mornings and I can stay there afterwards for several hours in silence thinking and praying and just sitting with the beautiful icons and fragrant incense. It is one of the highlights of my week. When I am stressed, I find prayer bolsters my confidence. When I don’t feel like praying but do anyway, my strength and desire grow every time.
CONFIDENCE: 3/10 Being a nun is a lot of hard work. I thrive with a flexible schedule, especially because of my depression, so I do not know if I could survive the strict schedule of monastic life. Also, I am very social, so I could only see myself thriving at a monastery where I can do lots of service and outreach in the surrounding community. What about the vow of chastity? I’m not currently dating anyone nor do I have a burning desire to do so, but I’m not sure I don’t want to have a family one day. Moreover, could I handle the spiritual regimen of prayer and fasting? It is hard for me to do my rule of prayer, especially evening prayers. Sometimes I wonder if I could devote myself to a life of prayer if I have difficulty doing 15-20 minutes of prayer by myself in the evenings. However, I am growing. Also, as the semester gets busier and busier, I find myself missing more church services than ever before. Is this because the “honeymoon phase” at the orthodox church is fading? I don’t think so, but I do worry that maybe I am only as passionate as I am because everything is still novel.
COHERENCE: 4/10 This plan makes sense only in my spiritual life. Professors would scoff at this plan, family would have concerns about my distance from them, friends may doubt my focus and devotional ability. But since last winter, I have practiced a 3-times-a-day prayer rule, developed heightened focus in prayer and mediation, and come to love prayer. However, it is not putting my degree to particularly good use. Father Jason has been supportive of this plan but is as uncertain as I am as to my being suited to monastic life.
Abby Potter is a photojournalism student based in Bowling Green, Ky.
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